Under the Weather

The first season change illness embarked on our household over the weekend.  And since the kids were with their I was the lucky recipient of said illness.  It started on Thursday night.  My throat was on fire, it was hard to swallow and I could feel the congestion building up.  I drank the rest of the fireball/turkey piss in hopes of fighting off the virus.  To no avail, I woke up Friday morning feeling like I had been hit by a freight train.

I tried to stick it out at work, since I was already scheduled to leave early.  But, I just couldn’t.  So at 10:30 am I called it quits.  I went home and slept for a few hours, made some soup, took a shower and geared up for Halloween night.

Saturday morning, we all slept in.  The kids and I watched movies and cuddled on the couch for a good portion of the morning then ventured out to two soccer games.  Both Alex and Eva lost, but it wasn’t as freezing cold as it was the day before.   For that, I am grateful.

Once I got back from the games, a little nap was in order.  I was still feeling pretty crappy but I had powered through.  Now, I couldn’t wait to rest.

I’m not very good at napping.  Typically I’ll get a 20 minute power nap that seriously changes my life.  Sometimes, I’ll try to sleep for a full hour.  Saturday, I slept for three and a half hours!  Straight!  No waking up. No tossing and turning.  It was daylight when I laid down and it was dark when I woke up.

I was a little disappointed that I slept my afternoon/evening away, but I was still feeling pretty bad.  I got up, made something to eat and laid back down on the couch.  I watch several episodes of Gilmore Girls that night and went back to bed.

Sunday was a little better, but I still couldn’t find the motivation to do ANYTHING.  I did finally grocery shop.  But that was it.

I had already taken Monday off work, so I figured I’d save all the laundry for then.  Grace was also off on Monday and Eva ended up coming home with a headache (not surprising).  I had a conference call I had to make and a doctor appointment scheduled for the afternoon, so the whole day ended up being tense.  I don’t do well when things are hanging over my head.

Now it’s back to work.  I can’t quite get out of the funk.  Some of it is probably this virus hanging around. The other part….seasonal depression.  I don’t know.  I just don’t want to clean, cook, or do any other motherly thing right now.  I just want to be in my own head, do my own thing and watch my own shows.  It sounds awful, but I don’t want to communicate with anyone…especially people who need things from me.

The kids are back with Chris tomorrow, Alex goes hunting on Thursday, work deadlines have been moved up a day, so there’s still a lot going on.  I just kind of want to check out of all of it.  It sure would be nice to just call in sick to life for a while.