The kids are gone this week on a whirlwind vacation in Florida
with their dad. It’s been very quiet in
the house. And clean. If they don’t get
back soon, I might start to get used to this.
The preparation for them to go on this trip was overwhelming. The fact that I had to take a half day from
work to pack for a vacation I’m not even going on is obscene. But, their dad didn’t see any reason to
assist the kids in packing for this trip.
He just left them to their own devices.
They were kind of stressing out about that so I did what a mother does
and helped out. A part of me wanted to
just say sorry and leave it up to him, but I couldn’t let my kids go off for a
week completely unprepared.
Grace has been great about staying in contact and sending me some
pictures. The view of the ocean has got
my planning mind racing. I’ve already
started looking into a North Carolina beach vacation for next summer.
Also through her updates and check ins, it’s been evident that he
is literally throwing money at everything.
Spent a few grand on a condo, but no reason to use the actual
kitchen. Every meal has been dining out. Want to go deep sea fishing? Sure!
No reason to eat anything before hand or take some motion sickness
medicine. No big deal that each one of
the kids got seasick and threw up on the boat.
Not his responsibility to clean up.
Want souvenirs? Absolutely! You can buy anything you want. Because the only way I know how to pretend to
have an emotion of love is to BUY THINGS!!!
This might come off as being jealous or bitter, but that’s not
the case at all. I’m glad the kids get
the opportunity to vacation this way because it is not even close to the way we
vacation. Our focus is much more on
experiences, spending time together and reveling in God’s beautiful world. The best paradise cannot substitute for being
with the best company. And at some point
this week, each kid has expressed that they wished I took them on this vacation
instead of their dad. No amount of money
can make up for being an awful person.
The kids got to experience some new things. They also learned a lot about what kind of a
person their dad is.
Neither me nor them
can wait until they return home to our house built on faith and love.
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